When things went to shit between us, I was not totally without fault. There were things I did and said and ways I’d acted that I didn’t like. I had many of the same bad habits I’d see in you, one of which eventually came back to bite you in the ass in a big way.
So as hurt as I was, I wanted to be a better person. I wanted to change those ugly parts. And part of my mantra was that I wasn’t you. I was capable of change. I could fix those bad habits. When I caught myself thinking in a way that was similar to you, I nipped it in the bud.
I’m not going to pretend I don’t have shaky moments when that old me almost comes out. It’s a slow process to undo decades of bad behavior.
But it’s helped me deal with the pain I had from our fallout initially. Maybe I had to meet you, maybe I had to be hurt by you to kickstart this change. So, in spite of everything, thanks for the mirror.
Re: LETTERS YOU'LL NEVER SEND
So as hurt as I was, I wanted to be a better person. I wanted to change those ugly parts. And part of my mantra was that I wasn’t you. I was capable of change. I could fix those bad habits. When I caught myself thinking in a way that was similar to you, I nipped it in the bud.
I’m not going to pretend I don’t have shaky moments when that old me almost comes out. It’s a slow process to undo decades of bad behavior.
But it’s helped me deal with the pain I had from our fallout initially. Maybe I had to meet you, maybe I had to be hurt by you to kickstart this change. So, in spite of everything, thanks for the mirror.