I wrote this when I was emotional and tired. I'm not saying I'm completely over it because I'm not but it was reactive.

I don't want to go into a lot of detail but I did change my behavior at first before it reverted again, so I can see why said person was disillusioned. There's no point into going into the why's now. As for making them wait, I had some serious life issue stuff going on at the time which affected my patience and tolerance for rp related issues severely. Looking back I should have just stopped rp for that time, I tried to explain it to said person but I did react poorly and I am one of those anxiety chihuahuas. I think they ran out of patience.

You may be right that I'm not owed an apology but I still would have appreciated one because I can't say we were just strangers. Shit just hurts but I don't blame them either and I'm frustrated at myself for letting a hobby ruin a friendship.