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251: back in my day wank meant something

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i took ambien in a relatively high dosage prescribed to me for a doctor for chronic insomnia for many years. it made me pretty loopy but it reduced sleep anxiety enough so that i could sleep.

one side effect that i'm noticing that no one here has mentioned is memory loss. i'm not sure how common it is in general, but it wasn't uncommon for me to black out after taking it. i did say and do things that i genuinely had no memory of happening. it was fairly typical for me to see things that i'd apparently written when i was under and be very confused by them because it wasn't stuff i'd normally do.

so again, having long-term firsthand experience with the medication, i can easily see a situation where someone made a plurk they wouldn't normally make, wonder what the fuck that was about, and delete it when under ambien. different people have different sensitivities to these kinds of medications and can experience pretty wild side effects and that possibility is something that always needs to be taken into account.

memory loss is common. personally, i didn't mention it because it doesn't make a difference here imo. even though i had no memory of the things i did, they usually did make sense to me and were not wild departures from my regular self

ambien did not ever spontaneously morph me into an asshole

ok milk... still doesn't excuse you writing shitty things about the people who for some insane reason still want to be your friend. hopefully this changes their minds once and for all.

I experience memory loss when I take ambien, too, but imo that plurk was too coherent and too specifically manipulative to be blamed on sleep medication. Ambien makes you take a piss in your fridge. It doesn't make you post on social media about how your friends aren't making your RP experience their top priority.

fellow anon with chronic insomnia: i've suffered temporary or complete memory loss on some medication, but typically when the dosage was unsuitable (usually too high for me). i've found some element of that, drowsiness and that weird light loss of balance when you first get up to be inevitable on most deep sleep aids i've tried, fwiw. it sucks :/

but did the dosage make you write shitty things on social media about your friends?

can't say it ever did! mostly i agree with airt that everyone's medical reality is different, but a very rare and minor element of blackout, drowsiness and imbalance is inevitable on all the medication i've tried to date. if it becomes frequent or extensive, i've always been told to report it as a side effect, with a view to tweak my dosage or medication.

what's worrying in this situation is that, assuming they really did have a terrible experience on ambien, milk seems to be... undisturbed by it, based on the pastebin shared here? i just can't imagine a world where a medication presumably did a 180 on my personality in ways i couldn't rein in/remember, and the next day i'd be going, 'that ambien sure be ambiening!' i'd be mortified but also just rattled. i know people react differently to this stuff, but surely if your behavior while on medication has come to disturb other people, you'd... apologize and commit to bring it up with your doctor, idk.

for me the issue is they’ve been having issues like this on ambien for two years or more now. so even if it is an ambien thing letting it continue this long absolutely makes it a their responsibility thing. a one off freak out on a new medication or something is understandable but if it happens constantly and you do not seek to rectify the situation that is on you.

"bambien" episodes have been happening for 4 - 5+ years, as far back as deerington. they would also write off putting event prompts and tags and later blame it on "bambien". some i received went against my stated permissions in my journals but we were friendly at the time so i let it slide and disengaged when it kept happening.

Same hat. I'm the anon from a few years ago that asked if it was normal for my friend to forget or ignore all boundaries and RP permissions and content warnings every time they took Ambien.

so what you're all telling me is that milk has been a pos the entire time

like people kept pointing out and being called "grudgewankers" for it

good to know we were always right

out of curiosity are you also the anon who mentioned a friend that would make unsettling allusions to suicide when on ambien or are there multiple people in this hobby who use ambien as an excuse to be awful to others

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